What was that noise?

A foreign squeak noise startled me this evening as I was searching the internet for various Bunny blogs... Feeling concerned that the noise ACTUALLY came from some deep, disturbed place in me. I think I need to invest in a bunny ASAP!

WRONG WAY, GO BACK!?!?!

WARNING: The following post may contain some angst... (everything will be back to normal next post)

Ever feel you've missed a turn somewhere? I'm speaking metaphorically here - you shouldn't be reading/searching the internet while driving... if you do, I'm not going to be held responsible & you should feel lucky you've only missed a turn & not suddenly found yourself in the middle of a giant fireball.

I try to live my life to the fullest. No regrets and all that. Which is great & works 99% of the time. I try not to let anything get me down, try not to care too much about anything so as to avoid stress etc. You know - all that crap they teach you in kindergarten/kids shows. Believe in yourself... be positive... Trust your abilities.. blah blah blah.

My biggest inspiration for the "relentless positivity" method is Day9 (Sean Plott). He's a StarCraft player & does a daily show that looks at the different strategies in the game as well as giving some hilarious tales from his life. The one thing that really stuck with me was his positive attitude towards almost everything. It didn't mean he was always happy... but he didn't let emotions stand in his way. They are, after all, just chemicals... and sometimes they can be scary, but you just have to let them do their thing. It'll pass eventually, don't try to fight it, don't look too deep/overthink things, just ride the wave & it'll be over soon.

However, every now & again, I can't help but just go through a state of "did I miss something?" or "Where am I really heading?" It's not even a conscious thing. I'll just wake up feeling MEH and then an hour or so later the thought pops into my head. (Generally, this is when I'll sit down & watch the daily - or an old video of his.. just try to keep my mind off things. It helps.)

I don't regret one action I've ever made in my life. All decisions were made by myself & I was of sound mind when I made them - so I have no one to blame but myself.

Am I alone in this feeling?

Don't misunderstand this post. I'm not looking for sympathy, or attention. I'm not missing home. I am just getting my thoughts out there so as I can look back later & go - oh, look how far I've come. Putting it out there, so perhaps other people realise they aren't the only one going through it (??? I don't know)

I take a look at my life & can't help but compare it to my friends/family... stupid society ingraining that into us as children.

Some of my friends are married, or engaged, or have started families. They are the same age as me. I don't have any of these things. I'm sure many of them are progressing their careers, or buying a new house/car. Again.. I'm not really doing any of these.

Instead, I've spent the last few years of my life saving as much money as I can to get out of Australia. See the world. Learn about different cultures. Experience as much as I can before settling down... but no one knows for sure what the future holds. I may not ever settle down. I'll get to be the cool aunt who rocks up a few times a year with presents & crazy stories about my overseas adventures.

Perhaps I'll end up combining my love of travel with some sort of job (though I don't know how I would go about that)... to be fair I haven't really looked that hard into that side of things.

It's impossible to do EVERYTHING in life... and that bugs me.

Top 10 Animals I want as pets

I've had my fair share of pets over the years.

My parents enjoy telling anyone who will listen that my first pets were a pair of geese: Honky & Sambo, and a pair of goldfish: Fatty Fin & Mr. Fish. Not to mention the many cats & dogs that have passed through my house.

I do remember when I was ten giving my father specific instructions on how to care for my pet guinea pigs - down to how much feed they should be given daily. I was heading to school camp. He was probably thinking how ridiculous I was being.

The following is a list of the top ten animals (in no particular order) that I would like to have as pets...

10. Rabbit.
I have wanted a bunny rabbit since I was little. Mostly because they are fluffy. Perhaps part of it is also due to the illegality of having one as a pet where I live (they are considered a pest).

9. Crocodile/Alligator.
For no other reason then to scare the hell out of anyone who tries to break into my property.

8. Tiger
The above reason applies.

7. Honey Badger
Because the Honey Badger takes what it wants.

6. Thestral
Who doesn't like Harry Potter? Also, the are invisible unless you have seen death. Stealthy!

5. Unicorn
I hear drinking it's blood makes you immortal. Preferably a rare vermilion, Ukrainian unicorn.

4. Velociraptor
I'm a devout follower of Raptor Jesus.

3. Wookie
To confuse people as they sounds like a phone vibrating on table.

2. Charizard or any other Dragon-type creature
Not only are they convenient modes of transportation, but I think you'll find they will lower your heating bill.

1. A legion of bluebirds or chipmunks
I hear they like to give sponge baths & are great seamstresses.

There you go.
Complete list of animal I'm sure there would be more if I hadn't put the limit on the amount I could choose.

Honourable mentions include:
- Winged Monkeys
- Alexander Skarsgård
- A Whale.